February 2, 2009 ~ 10:15pm
My uncle passed away yesterday, while I am deeply saddened by the loss, I feel even more sorrow that he never got the chance to complete many things that I know he intended on doing.
So, I was talking on the phone with a good friend, and when the topic came up he confessed that whenever he hears of a death, he ponders his own mortality - wondering how much time he has. I don't know why, but for me, the thought that enters mind is "Did I complete everything?". Did I pay my bills and fold my clothes? Did I leave a mess for someone else to clean? Did I remember to say "Thank You" and "Sorry"? Did I leave everyone in a state where I could cause them no more worries?
I don't believe in the statement: "Live each day like it is your last". Even so, I feel it is disappointing that every day we worry about all things we meant to do yesterday. I think all the things people owe to each other, whether it is simple as money or as important as love and respect, should be given long before anyone realizes the bill is past due.